The Trappings Of Love,♥

From the day we met, to the very last night

2010-02-22T21:37:00.003+08:00

I realise that I have freaking a lot of dreams these few days
But some are damn freaking and scary that I woke up in shock and broke out in cold sweat, but others are really sweet and.. :)

But anw, my grand aunt came over today
Okay tbh I have never ever seen her in my whole entire life before until now, I mean I can't rmb anything about her but she claimed that she carry me before when I was still a lil baby
But whatever is it, it's nice seeing her

This song is damn good (Y)

Anw school is starting in a month's time and I'm not ready for school... :(

2010-02-10T15:32:00.007+08:00

I thought I deleted all my pictures and everthing from my desktop then I realise that my aunt did a backup for me
Funny pictures, and both good and bad memories
Shall post some here :)

Lizhen :)

Our gym day...

Hannah's Chalet :)

OMG I won't forget this day!!! HAHAHAH

Jacq's 15th/16th birthday, can't rmb..

I miss my lower secondary school life :(

I'll post some more tmrw HEHEHE

Esp the one I piggyback Hannah... OMG funny sia..

2010-02-02T17:08:00.003+08:00

Decided to show this video cos it's super funny and Wooyoung is really.... beyond description
Anw SHINee's autograph session was hell, didn't even see their faces, not even a single part of them cos it was damn crowded and the security was damn tight!!!
I just watched Ft Island's autograph session which was located at IMM on Youtube, wth!!!! The girls... damn lucky... hugged Hongki and Jonghun :(
And they even put their arms around the girls!!!!!!!!!!
I'm damn jealous seriously :( :( :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Ooooh and I'm getting my pay soon!!! Like finally!!! YAYYYY

You call it fate, I call that karma

2010-01-30T21:23:00.004+08:00

Finally, I've the time to blog
I'm so tied up with work and the posting of school results...
My course wasn't what I wanted... I got into freaking nursing so I'm appealing to go rp because that's the only poly I can enter, wish me luck!

Anw went rp the other day and talked to the faciltators there about my results and if there's a chance that I can go in.. But their faces tells it all..
Ate in rp, then met Shane for a while then we went Cathay and watch My Ex
I was freaking scared until I cannot tahan, I hate horror movies!!!!!
I practically cover my eyes and ears the whole time!!!!!
Obviously, the two ppl sitting beside me suffered cos I kept on screaming like mad cow disease. The audio system is damn freaking loud
But thank God, I didn't have any nightmares :)

Weeeee pay day coming, like finally!!! Can't wait to go shopping and buy my cny clothes!!!! OOOOH, and I'm gng to see my baby Shinee tmrw!!!! Jonghyun and Minho!!! :) :) :)

C.N BLUE <3

2010-01-19T16:03:00.005+08:00

I really love my baby Jung Yong Hwa (!!!!!) <3
I think he's really cute and looks super super like Kim Hyun Joong
Kang Min Hyuk looks cute too
But I think their new song is nice :)

Anw I'm starting work tmrw at Plaza Sing, visit me for lunch if you want HEHEHE :)
Toodles!!!!

2010-01-16T15:38:00.003+08:00

I'm not affected, I'm not affected
But I really dislike you

Get drunk and die

2010-01-09T16:00:00.005+08:00

Prom was fun, I love the slideshow and the pictures were... funny
I love the pictures they display on the slideshow

After prom, went for Fairfield post prom party and it was damn wild but fun
Then walked around Town... and I was damn dizzy and tipsy... and... anw shan't elaborate
Rested at Mac's, and felt a lil better after that and the three of us sat down and talked and talked and talked. Reached home at 7am and went to sleep, woke up at 2pm (2PM!!!) Headache and all...

Suppose to go TP open house cos they emailed me and all but decided to skip it cos I can't reach there in time

I'm fucking scared for my O level results

2010-01-04T12:56:00.002+08:00

Hahaha he's damn cute here!!!!
And it's a sad scene...

Anw my mother got me an Iphone for Christmas :)
But... I suck at using it...
And I'm sick and down with flu + cough + fever + headache since 31st December.. :(
Anw I hope Swenn gets better, get well soon!!!!!!!! Mizz you sooo much

Finally, I bought my prom dress after so so so long, but... idk if I should wear it cos I've sth else in mind.. But whatever, it's just prom

I've nth much to blog about anymore, toodles

New Year Eve

2009-12-31T17:38:00.004+08:00

I had a high fever last night and splitting headache :(
Vomitted a few times in the midnight
But I'm feeling better today

I'm still deciding if I wna go countdown later

Anw I'm super addicted to You're Beautiful
Jung Yong Hwa is really hot...
He looks totally like Kim Hyun Joong

K gotta go rest now, toodles

Happy Birthday, Jesus Christ <3

2009-12-24T11:51:00.005+08:00

What is Christmas without Jesus?

Met Ivy ytd, suppose to go church but we were really late so we decided to give it a miss
Saw a few familar faces and the reaction of their faces were really funny hahah esp Jim's
Suppose to meet Shane like late in the night, but decided not to in the end
Anw, Christmas this year seems to be very quiet, but anw
caught Avatar at 2am ytd, reached home around 5.30am
Surprisingly I got up at around 12pm, and it's a miracle to me

Avatar is really really really nice (Y) It's one of the best movies I've watched!
Heard there is a part 2 omg can't wait!

Suppose to go bowling later, but the rain is really heavy now and it spoils my mood

Time really flies, it's 6 days to a new year

Resolutions for 2010....?
I'm still thinking

Blog next time, toodles

(Fill in the blanks)

2009-12-19T15:11:00.004+08:00

WEEE I went shopping ytd, bought a pair of shoes ^-^ Damn nice!! :)
OHH and we went to the arcade after that HAHAHAHA damn bloody fun
We played basketball and we damn pro kkkz, we hit the highscore!!!! :) :)
As usual, we were laughing while we were playing......... HAHAHAH

Decided to stay home today because of the bad weather :(

Anw I have two very weird dreams on two different days, ytd morning and this morning
But one thing for sure, the two different dreams consist of the same person!!!
It's damn freaky and dreams are scary, they makes you think about the dreams constantly

Love Demi Lovato :)

Sundown Festival videos

2009-12-15T19:27:00.004+08:00

The connection of the Internet sucks, can't upload videos on fb but finally managed to upload it on youtube so I can put it up here :)
Anw I only took part of the performances cos my hand was rly tired :(

Ok done, toodles!!!

Sundown Festival Seoul'd Out

2009-12-14T16:21:00.009+08:00

I had free tickets to the Sundown Festival because Ivy's friends were kind enough to give it to us :)
Anw I SWEAR that I can die from standing
I ALMOST DIED, I stood for 5-6 hours straight including queueing time!!!!

Anw I think the producers and those people in charge damn smart..
They purposely put FT Island 2nd last and BEG last, SMART RIGHT!!!
We were standing at the side but we were at the front though
I'll post some all the good pictures here and rest of it will be on my fb :)
OHHH YEAH I took videos too!!! :)

I think her name is Park Shin Hae

Mario :)

T-MAXXXX
I didn't snap a good and clear picture of them :(
Cos they were all far apart...

BEG were friggin' hot

FT ISLAND BABYYYZZZ!!!!!

Lee Ji Su- what a call a real hottie!!!!!!!!

Mario rocked the house down with Kiss Me Thru The Phone, his really good at such songs

Lee Ji Su sang the OST song from My Girl. Brillant and hot!!!!!

FT Island sang I hope which was really good :)

Videos will be uploaded tmrw or sth..

ANW I NEED A JOBBBBBBBBBBB, SOMEONE INTRO ME PLZ THANKZ

Neon pink nails

2009-12-10T17:42:00.002+08:00

I.
Have.
No.
Mood.
For.
Anything.

DAVID BECKHAM IS MINE ♥

2009-12-01T17:39:00.005+08:00

I'm watching Ellen on channel 5 now
OMG David Beckham really..... damn...... bloody cute!!!!!!!

Anyway, I love this picture :)

And this,

Pictures posted on my facebook! :)

I'm watching IRIS, damn bloody nice!!!
Toodles!!! ^.^

I know this sounds absurb...

2009-11-24T00:22:00.002+08:00

Work is very hectic and stressful
I can't wait for work to end... and I don't feel like going work tmrw!!!!!!!

Anw AHHHHHHHHH I think this sounds absurb..
But I actually went to google and yahoo to search for the mystery stranger guy
I know I'm being damn stupid silly and whatever you are gonna say.. buttttttt I can't help it la
But I'm not gonna do this shit anymore, everything have to come to a stop
And I'm stopping now... stopping this overwhelming feeling (?) or whatever is that

I'm not gonna do anything about it anymore like seriously
Opportunities are hard to come by the second time, but whatever, I'm still hoping though...

Goodnight pigs

A year older,

2009-11-22T22:29:00.004+08:00

YAYYYYYYY I'm finally 17!!!!!!
Birthday was super fun and surprising (if you know the meaning behind it) HAHAHA I love the presents and the super duper huge card and the balloon and the prawning and the dinner and the arcade damn a lot :) :) :)
YAYYY it's one of the best birthdays I had!!!!!!!!!!

Anw I shall tell you my whole story of my birthday :)
First, I met them (Hannah, Jacqueline, Joey, Melanie, Ivy, Althea, Tiffany, Dhya) at Ecp
but apparently I'm late... again.. HAHA so sorry guys
Then they surprised me with a Strawberry Shortcake balloon and a really huge gigantic card with many nice pictures and cute letters pasted on it :)
Then we proceed on to prawning and it was hell fun!!! I always wanted to go prawning hahaha and I managed to catch 5 prawns!!! Then we went to bbq the prawns after that :) YUMMY

After which, we went to Bugis for dinner at Wong Kok Char Chan Teng (I think)
They blindfolded me all the way to 2nd level and then make me station at Guardian hahaha
I know everyone was looking at me cos I could see through the blindfold!!!
Then they sat me down and they removed my blindfold and TA-DA I saw a gigantic big mug of milk teaaaa <3 My favourite :)
Then a birthday song was being played at the background, the really typical kind of birthday song hahaha. Then I realise another group was exceptionally cheering and singing really loudly from the back... Hmmm..

Then they told me that I've to finish the whole damn thing before they give me the present
but of cos I didn't manage to la HAHAH
We ordered our food and it tasted really good! Then I realise that the group behind me was celebrating one of their friends' birthday too because I accidentally eavesdrop them saying sth about someone's birthday hehehe

After eating and talking hahahah someone unexpectedly came over to our table and ask whose the birthday girl and he shook hands with me and wished me a happy birthday and vice versa..
HAHA it was damn unexpected...

Then I had to blindfold myself again and ta-daaaaaa three lovely muffins were in front of me :)
And then there was a pink box with a cute ribbon tied around it
I opened it and saw the leggings I wanted!!!!!!!! YAYYYY and there were also a mirror, lip balm, a Paul Frank wallet :) It looked really sweet and nice like seriously :)

Then I offer a muffin to the other birthday person at the other table
And he in turn gave me a piece of his cake
AND GUESS WHAT???
His cake was strawberry shortcake...... Damn shocking damn scary damn freaky and damn true
And I was holding a strawberry shortcake balloon..... Okay I was a bit freaked out... (if you know what I mean..)

Okay I know there was sth gng on... cos.... (I shan't say here) but eventually, we left earlier than that group and.. nothing else happened.
I think is damn wasted... cos he looked really nice and there were far too many coincidences

I know this sounds absurb but hahaha I really damn eager to know him as a friend of cos
But too bad, I regretted not doing anything about it :( SIGHHHHHHH

Well I suppose everything happens for a reason and I let the opportunity slip me by buttttt... if fate is kind to us, we'll meet again eventually (I hope)

Ps: Pictures will be up tmrwwwwww!!!

Curiousity kills

2009-11-13T22:07:00.006+08:00

O levels are finally over :)
The thought of a final end to O levels thrills me, but the thought of leaving school after 5 faithful years to Fairfield saddens me. I never ever really thought through this very day, but I guess now I did and I'm not feeling too good about it

Thoughts of everything and memories when I was a childish galz in sec one flashes through my mind
I never thought I'd be that sad about having to leave my high school but things changed,
and the high school I attended was one of the best things that happened to me

For now, I'm not gonna think about anything anymore, nothing about my O levels, nothing about all my problems, but just my family and working, and my 17th which is coming yayyyyyyy

I need a job, and I left down my number in quite a few shops and companies, but nothing's workinggggggg :(((((((((((((((!!!!!!

Steward Boy (L)

2009-11-06T22:16:00.003+08:00

5 more days to freedom!!!!!
Left F&N, Chinese and Combined Science MCQ YAYYY
Then freedom!!!!!!!

Okay but I went out after my Geog paper on Wed hehe for dinner with my mum
She bought many clothes for me and I had sushi for dinner :)
Thurs went out with my friends and we wanted to watch a movie but we couldn't decide
Before that, went to find job with Ivy at Jp but couldn't find :(
ANYONE GOT JOBS TO RECOMMEND??? CALL ME KKK :) :) :)

I went out with my family today to IMM to have lunch and bought a bedsheet
I love my bedsheet now!!!

Anw I've been watching this HK show call... Moonlight Resonance I think
There's this guy named Steward Boy and he's a damn nice guy in the show
but tbh such guys only exist in like 1 in 1000000 (???)
His real name is Raymond Lam and he's cute :)

OOOOH, and I love the song I Want You Back by Secret
but fyi, the song doesn't imply for me
I just love the song, because it's very catchy

Toodles!!!

I love Boys Like Girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-28T22:11:00.002+08:00

I finally have the time to blog :)
Have been studying and mugging for Math
Math is finally over!!!!!!!!
Math paper is manageable! Thank God :) :)
Well, I did more study for Math anw!

~~English~~
~~Math~~
Chemistry
Social Studies
Physics
Geography
F&N
Chinese
Combined Science Mcq

END OF O LEVELS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You asked me if I missed you, but I don't know what to answer

2009-10-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

I had my Science practical today
Physics was okay.. Managed to get the length and all.
But Chemistry was.... (fill in the blanks for me)
But whatever la, I just hope I'll pass my practical
Thank God it doesn't weigh much percentage :)

Get over your sorrow

2009-10-20T21:58:00.003+08:00

I love Heart And Mind (HAM), :)
I love the song T.T Dance
And omg, FT Island, BEG and T-max coming to Town!!!!!!!!!!

Okay off to studyyyyyyyyyy

O levels!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-18T22:11:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiiiiii, I haven't been blogging for at least a month I think..

Have been studying and having tuition like mad cow disease :( :(

Can't wait for O levels to end, then I can play all day!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWENN LONG!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH

I know you didn't think that I have this picture because you didn't receive it from me, and because I didn't upload and send to you (again!!!) HAHAHA okay it was meant to be a suprise :) :) :)

YAYYYY

Clumsy

2009-09-22T21:55:00.003+08:00

I burnt my hand in Chemistry class :(
It is damn pain okay
I have three bubble thing on my three different fingers
:(

Anw s2e started today
It was... boring.
But at least I managed to study a bit la.

Went out to Jp on Saturday with my family ;-)
It's been so longgggg since I've had such family gathering
Hehehex enjoyed it

Anw this is suppose to be a quick post because my aunt blocked http://www.blogger.com/
So I can't excess it sianz, now using my another comp
Hehehx I like my new blog.
Check out my playlist and tagboard on the right!
Toodles!

I love you forever, but forever is over

2009-09-15T18:51:00.003+08:00

My aunt is crazy, she intentionally locked Facebook and Blogger, so that I couldn't log in just because I came home exceptionally late on Saturday
Ugh sometimes her actions are really.. unreasonable and irritating..
Anw went home pretty late on Saturday, like around 1 plus.
Well, didn't felt like going home..

Anw, don't ask me about my Prelim results..
Suprisingly, my Chinese was the best, B4 (!!!)

Anw shit I'm addicted to Love Drunk by Boys Like Girls
Paul Digiovanni is damn cute, you gotta agree with me
And Ashley Tisdale is hot

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab
Cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

Hahah the lyrics are pretty meaningful, go check it out ;-)

Memory

2009-09-11T21:05:00.003+08:00

It takes a day to know a person, perhaps an hour to love them. But it takes a lifetime to forget them -took from somewhere
That's why I suppose there's such thing called memory

Devastating news

2009-09-09T13:19:00.000+08:00

I hope Jaeboem is alright,
and will be back soon :(
Stay strong!

Unforgettable date

2009-09-03T19:58:00.001+08:00

Today marks a special occasion..
but time to forget

The look in your eyes..

2009-08-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

Two years ago. This day. Our first date.

Happy Teacher's Day!
Teacher's day was okay haha
Sneaked into staff room :-p but got chased out after that
Wish all teachers a blessed Teacher's day anw :)

Watched Orphan after that.
I was totally freaked out to the max
I was hugging Jacq and Althea hehex and
I covered my eyes with my hand like almost throughout the whole movie!
It was damn scary
To be honest, I almost cried because I was damn scared!!!!
And I wanted to get out of the theatre
Okay, anw the show was okay

Okay, idk what the hell is in my mind now
Sucks

Stupid love game (Haha, I love the damn big G dragon picture!!!)

2009-08-27T16:41:00.004+08:00

English Oral was managable, thank God.
Managed to say all that I can think of :)
I hope I get good results!

G Dragon's new album rocksss, love it
G G G G BABY BABY, GD GD BABY BABYYYYYYY
(Listening to it now, hehex)
And, he's damn cute la ugh

Anw, I'm pretty sad and feel quite despondent
because I realised quite a number of ppl around me whom I know, are feeling so down these few days :( I feel really sad for them.
And seeing them like this, I'm not feeling too good myself,
but I should be strong..
I don't have a choice, because I can't breakdown now.
I just hope they'll be okay soon. (Cheer up, plzzz)
Like how I was last time,
when I eventually picked myself up again!
(Of course, with the help of everyone around me, incl. God :) )
If I can do it, I'm sure you can too.

And I won't deny that I feel quite sad or whatever you call that,
but I know I have to stop this somehow..
Okay, no more emo posts. :)

I tear you out my heart and clear you out of my head

2009-08-17T17:29:00.007+08:00

I watched Up the other day.
The movie was a little unrealistic,
but it was damn touching.
I almost cried when the old man lost his house :( Because it was the last thing that his wife left him. But the movie was worth it, though it was a cartoon.

Stayed over at Hannah's place to study..
But... we ended up falling asleep.
But studied the next day :)

Don't laugh, but I actually haha did something stupid in the bathroom. It was not lame or childish okay. Yes, I blew bubbles in the bathroom. It reminded me of my childhood days when I spend 1 hour bathing because I was busily blowing bubbles. I wanted to relieve my childhood memories!

I know it's stupid, but this is so true. Hahaha, don't worry, it doesn't imply for me. Facebook stirs jealousy (?) Read this news!

I recently started watching it again, hahaha cannot help it. I like this part of the showwww :) Hyun Joong cute sia, he's damn charminggggg

Off to studyyyyy

It's always so important to treasure whatever you have now

2009-08-11T17:45:00.001+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging.
Been rather busy..
Celebrated Shreedhya's birthday on Friday and Saturday.
It was fun and hope you like the birthday "bash" HAHA

Happy Birthday, Shreedhya! :)

Ivy <3

Mervyn- Hahaha, I don't even know when we last took a picture

After "dinner"

East Coast Park!

I love this picture! :)

Senior:
Rest in peace,
I know you're in good hands
Love, Grace

Happy 121st Birthday, Fairfield!

2009-08-04T20:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Fairfield!!! I think this year is one of my best founder's day celebration. Overall, it was fun and everyone was enjoying it.
Saturday was great :) :)
It got too emotional that I couldn't hold back my tears.
I feel something in my heart, but I guess it was not the right time.
I'm not ready yet. I need more time.

Celebrated Melanie's birthday after that.
(Inserts picture here) Blogger having some problems, can't upload.
Anyway, it was fun and happy birthday, Mellie! :)

I suddenly thought of this song, although the song is launched since a long time
Lyrics are damn damn meaningful... :(

I realised it was still you I'm missing, after so long...
I'm trying very hard... I'm trying.. Trying very hard..

101th post!

2009-07-31T16:24:00.000+08:00

This is my 101th post
Shit I'm addicted to FT Island and 2NE1

Walao Jong Hun and Minhwan......... really.... :)
Although Jae Jin doesn't fit the hairstyle, but he's damn cute!!!
Honggi's voice is damn good
And I think FT Island is the most gorgeous Korean boyband

Anw, been visiting my dad at the hospital these few days
Hope he's doing fine. Come to think of it,
I've never ever sit down and talk to him for so long.
It was the first time that I actually have such a good chat with him.
I was damn heartbroken when I saw him doing that physio therapy
Hope he can stand up and walk normally again just like how he used to.
Please pray for him. Please get well soon, daddy

(Sorry if I broke yr promise.. )

It's such a shame we're worlds apart

2009-07-28T15:25:00.002+08:00

Love it
FT Island baby!!!
Lyrics are really meaningful (Find the english translation yourself)

Jonghun really hottie

Hi Jaejin :)

(Will you be more appreciative?)

You don't even know how much you've hurt me

2009-07-27T17:17:00.006+08:00

Anw, I finally did my shopping last weekend, like finally

Oh and I watched Obessessed the other day and I think it was pretty okay. Beyonce was damn cool la,
and Ali Larter damn pretty!! Beyonce really damn power.

And I watched Harry Potter the other day, it was okay
Pictures will be up soon (I hope)

I love Sandara Park from 2NE1 (!!!)

P.s: Ivy! Cheer up kkkkz :) Ly

Damn the whole world

2009-07-26T20:37:00.002+08:00

I alrd lost the most important thing since I was in kindergarden.
I've lost parental love, love from my parents.
Everyone has perfect happy family with their parents who love them unconditionally
But wtf do I have
Fucking stupid unreasonable shit "reasons" and methods used on me by my aunt
For goodness sake, get a life.
And stop controlling EVERYTHING I do.
You're making me hate home.
You're making me hate this fucking family of mine (except my grandma and my jiejie)
You're really tempting me to leave this home
You're making my life miserable.
You're making me so damn fucking stressed up.
You're adding more burdens into my life when
I alrd have so many fucking problems.
You think everything you do for me is for the good of me,
but have you think of whether is it really good for me?
Maybe it only benefit you, yourself, but I'm telling you now,
it doesn't benefit me at all.
I don't even feel love or care by you at all.
Only my grandma loves me, and I believe so.
If someone really love or care for you,
you'll gradually come to know it and feel it.
But I don't feel a single shit from you.
Is this what you call a family?
A family filled with no love, warmth and concern
(Damn it, always when things like this happen,
I always think of you, of how I used to cry on yr shoulder and you comforting me)
Fuck la
God, help me

I'm happy if you're happy

2009-07-16T18:23:00.001+08:00

Don't ask me about my Chinese O level oral!!!!
I screwed up my fucking O level Chinese oral yesterday.
It was a killer.
How could the teacher think that
I couldn't understand the conversation qs?!
She make sure that I could understand the question
so she said polytechinic in english after the chinese one.
How mean
(!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I used to love Jonas Brothers, :)
I still remember I joined their petition last year,
but aiya they also never come.
I was searching through my files,
and this song used to be one of my fav :)

The lyrics are really meaningful >
When you love someone,
and they break your heart,
don't give up on love
Have faith, restart
Just hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on

And Joe Jonas is damn charming,

(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

Don't come back, I hate you

2009-07-14T18:42:00.005+08:00

I saw a terribly unsightly scene today on the bus
(This might be the longest post ever since... don't know when)

An old lady was carrying a handful of heavy groceries
The bus was actually quite empty at that time,
so I presumed that's why she placed them on the seat beside her without knowing that the liquid of some cold items actually left some mark on the seat.
Soon, it reached this bus stop and
a group of commuters came up the bus,
thus the bus was quite crowded.
So this middle aged couple came up the bus, and wanted to sit beside her.
And the old lady actually lifted up her heavy groceries up and place it on the floor
so that they could sit down tgt.
But it left some wet marks on the seat, so only the guy sat down,
leaving the woman sitting on another seat.
The woman was complaining and all about the seat,
and worst still, shooking her head.
The couple started exchanging remarks on the bus
w the woman just in between them.

I was so shocked when I saw that.
How could the couple just get so pissed off
because of a seat on the bus?
What in the world is happening?
Why is everyone being so self-centered?

I feel like I just wrote a composition, hahaha.
Okay sorry I was just totally worked out.

On a happier note, school's fine.
Just that some things in school are just hard to avoid,
but I don't care!
And I'm damn scared for my Chinese O level oral tmrw!!!!!
Wish me all the best :)

(Oh, and I love my baby Taegoon!)

Ps. Asshole, thank you so much for yr help for my DPA!
Appreciate it a lotttt, <3

Thank you for everything <3

2009-07-12T15:35:00.004+08:00

I miss you, asshole :)
And thank you for:
assuring me that you'll be there for me,
being there for me when I need you,
the words which comes from the bottom of yr heart which makes my day,
the times you really made me laugh like mad,
making me so damn happy,
helping me to forget all my bad times and memories

Thank you, once againnnnnnnnnn :) :) :)

And I'm so sorry for hurting you with my words
Yknow I don't mean it, right?

Although I've lost something very dear to me,
but I gain sth very precious to me in return :)

DAMN IT (!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2009-07-11T18:57:00.003+08:00

Do onto others what you want others to do onto you

You make it seem so easy

2009-07-10T18:13:00.003+08:00

Totally addicted again :)

And 2pm!

I almost fainted

Please don't ask me what I like about you
Cos is every little thing you do
And that's just the way you make me feel
www.lockedlove.blogspot.com

Little did I know...

2009-06-30T18:10:00.005+08:00

This world is scary
This world is crazy
This world is selfish
This world is heartless
This is a mad world

Mad World (HQ Studio Version) - Adam Lambert

Now I know why.....

2009-06-27T01:50:00.004+08:00

All I can say is that,
I'm utterly disappointed... once again (?)
Thanks for "everything"!!! :) :) :)

Updated Private Blog

Will you always be there for me?

2009-06-22T17:30:00.002+08:00

Caught up with Michelle on Saturday :)
Damn long never talk to her alrd!!!
We talked about a lot of things and
I was glad I haven't lost a friend like her
:) :) :) (L)!!!!!

&To: you
Take care of yourself
Get well soon okay!!!!
Asshole :)

There are times when I hate you,
cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
and put tears on my face

There is a time for everything

2009-06-19T18:50:00.003+08:00

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself
I don't why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say, baby

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

No more words, no more lies
No more crying
No more pain, no more hurt
No more trying because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby hush hush

Okay, I'm feeling sad :(

Enough of drowning myself in sorrows

2009-06-19T12:56:00.002+08:00

Everything happens for a reason
And I believe that whatever is happening now,
is just part of my life

To: you
Thank you for everything :)

I try to be perfect
but nothing was worth it
I wish the best for you.
And you'll always be a part of me.

I miss you, I really do

2009-06-14T23:04:00.003+08:00

You come and go just like the wind
When will you come and stay forever?

Maybe nothing lasts forever

Let fate lead us

2009-06-07T22:23:00.005+08:00

I almost forgot.

Yesterday was my baby's birthday

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY

김현중 (Kim Hyun Joong)

YAYYYYYYY

He's the most charming gorgeous guy I've ever seennnnnnnnnn

& I still miss you..

I never needed you to point out my wrongs

2009-06-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

English seminar was boring,
but meaningful though.
Went sch for geog remedial too

Something in yr eyes,
that is just holding me back.
I wish I could forget all the memories...

After so much thinking, and
if the problem persist on,
then I guess is best to let go
I'll just wait, wait for 5 more days
Once the fifth day is over,
and nothing is happening,
then goodbye, forever
And I guess, I mean it this time
I don't have a choice

Just promise you won't forget me, and I'll leave you with this lullaby

2009-06-02T22:53:00.004+08:00

Chinese O level paper was quite a killer.
Two words: Gone case

Everyone has their own patience,
and once the patience run out,
nothing can change the outcome anymore.

I guess my life's really screwed up
One day, I'll come to understand that you actually have alrd moved on
Someday, somehow, we need to move on
Let nature takes its course
I'm done with trying and putting in my best,
I've done all that I could
And since my good efforts are not appreciated after such a long time,
then I guess you never were the best for me

To think about it,
it has been almost 9 months since that day
And I haven't even get over it

How can you be so heartless?
I guess I don't know you anymore.
You've changed, changed to someone who I barely knew anymore..
I'm utterly disappointed

A promise I make to myself:
Never ever to cry for you again

I'm gonna miss you like how a child misses their blanket

2009-05-30T18:47:00.005+08:00

I feel so stressed up in my family
Why weren't you there when I was crying so damn badly?

And my results are pathetic, I need to start studying!!!
And I'm so scared of my chinese o level...

I wish I never knew you were leaving,
so I don't have to miss you so much.
But I'm really glad that you told me though.
If I never knew about yr departure,
I wouldn't be drowning myself in tears
I'm touched that you told me about it.. really.
Take care when you're there, and bon vovage!!!
Miss you

I couldn't believe my ears

2009-05-24T14:46:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday, Ivy!
Thanks for everything, lovely
You're a very nice friend,
and thanks for the times you stood by me
Continue to be strong, and stay happy always
Love you, buddy.

Happy Birthday, Mervyn!
You're a very nice friend and thanks for everything
Study hard this year, and have fun on this very special
day with your loved ones :)
May all yr wishes come true.

Computer broke down few days back,
so didn't have the time to blog.
Now using my aunt's comp.
Attended Mervyn's and Ivy's birthday celebration.
It was fun :)

Oh, and I just had my f&n practical exam.
HAHA, I was the last one to leave the room cos
I was the last one to finish cleaning up :(
On the whole, all my dishes went well
after three practices I did on my own!

( I need my ipod back >: ( )

You're still in my dreams every now and then.
I see yr face everytime I close my eyes,
that was when I started thinking back about the memories,
both smiling and crying at the same time

You're such a "beautiful" liar

2009-05-15T19:02:00.004+08:00

I really don't know how can you forget me so easily
Why don't you teach me how?

Beyonce's songs are brillant
The lyrics are so meaningful,
it speaks about how a girl still loves a guy so deeply
no matter how much the guy hurt her

Beyonce- Broken Hearted Girl

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

For one reason, because I'm fucking stupid

2009-05-12T18:28:00.005+08:00

I'm tired, but I'm not complaining
I'll just bottle it up in me
Bottle it all up in me till I breakdown

I blame no one, but myself for believing you again

I never felt so drained out in my life before
I really feel so............ for the first time
(I can't wait to leave this place)

Do you know you shine brighter than anyone does

2009-05-08T16:41:00.006+08:00

Just finished my mid year papers
Well, I did studied this time but
I guess not hard enough.
Whatever is it, I really need to start focusing on my work
Really beat out these few days,
cos have been burning midnight oil

Oh, and I'm fucking happy that Adam Lambert (L)
in American Idol is one of the finalist!!!!!
WOOHOOOO
Kris Allen looks damn cute too :)

Kris Allen!!

Adam Lambert!!!!!!

Something in me is missing,
Idk what is it
But I just don't feel too good,
I wonder why
But I can't seem to find the answer
Idk what I'm worrying,
but my heart feels a bit awkward and uneasy

(I miss my good old times)

Doesn't mean that I don't make a sound, means I don't feel anything

You're still on my mind

2009-05-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday, Theodore!
I know is late, I'm sorry!
Thanks for all the times you've been there for me
Thanks for all yr advices and support you've gave to me
Thanks for being my friend and
making me laugh with your silly and lame jokes
May you be happy always, and once again,
Happy Birthday :)

It still upsets me

2009-04-29T20:03:00.002+08:00

This video is damn sad, and damn touching

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

Somethings are meant to be given up after a period of time,
instead of prolonging the sadness

If you know you'll be unfaithful in the end, then don't start the relationship

2009-04-27T16:40:00.005+08:00

Happy (belated :p) Birthday, Kelvin! :D

Hello pig, thanks for being there for me when I needed you.
Thanks for cheering me up and,
yr lil gestures sometimes really make me happy.
You're a wonderful friend,
and I thank God for you :)
May you be happy on this blessed day and
you're very much appreciated by me! <3

Today was Social Studies mid year paper.
Sadly to say, I think I screwed up the whole paper.
Well, at least I studied and did what I can :)
I'm gonna start studying my other subjects, soon!

Due to the humid weather, my Andersen Belgian Chocolate Chip ( :p ) ice cream is melting rapidly :(

Listening: Broken by 12 Stones :)

Time, moves slowly while you're gone
I haven't heard your voice in quite some time
But I still see your face
I cannot erase the things you've done
And all the ways you kept me hangin' on

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road

I know, it hurts to hear the truth
Well maybe
I was never meant to be with you
And I cannot replace
The tears of disgrace
That run for you
Cause running from the truth is what you do

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road

You were all I've ever known
And I cannot replace all these tears of disgrace
And I won't bleed for you anymore

Now your gone
I've moved on
And I don't feel so sorry
Can't you see I'm bleeding
But I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
But I had to let you go
At the end of our broken road
And I won't bleed for you anymore

I've moved on
And I won't bleed for you anymore
I'm bleeding but I won't bleed anymore
I've held on
For so long
At the end of our broken road

Leaving it behind

2009-04-22T21:07:00.002+08:00

For A Pessimist Im Pretty Optimistic - Paramore

Paramore :)

Just talk yourself up
And tear yourself down
You've hit your one wall
Now find a way around
Well what's the problem?
You've got a lot of nerve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

I'm not so naive
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fight shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stayI put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay well did you
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away

Give me a moment to restart my heart

2009-04-20T20:19:00.003+08:00

Updated private blog

Why build me up when you know you're gonna tear me down eventually?

Mixed feelings,

2009-04-17T21:47:00.003+08:00

Damn scared for Chinese midyear tmrw
I hope at least, I'll pass
Please pray for me!!!!!!

(And I'm grounded :( )

And you're such a bastard, really
Heartless asshole
I can't hold it any longer, dammit
Damn disappointed in you,
and I regretted the time I wasted on you to try to get you back

Grace, WAKE UP LA

(Tell me why you're so hard to forget)

2009-04-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

Bring back my Ipod to me :(

Bloody greedy person, don't know how to return to the bus driver is it
So selfish and greedy of you >:(
The whole world is getting more and more selfish

"The part that hurts the most isn't you ignoring me, but not holding me till the end"

I'm feeling better after a long and bitter cry

2009-04-09T19:08:00.002+08:00

Headache, cough, flu and sorethroat are killing me
Feeling unwell since two days ago :(

I just started studying too, :)

"If it's a person you have to erase, then is better not to painfully keep him in your heart"

I want to fill this frame with a new picture

2009-04-05T15:55:00.003+08:00

Swimming was great
Shopping was great
Bought a new hoodie from Pull And Bear :)

Give me a bit more time,
I'll be okay after a few days

I give up

2009-04-01T21:34:00.006+08:00

Friends are more important than boyfriends/crushes/whatever shit lovers

No more fucking shitty posts and emo posts anymore,
(I hope) Cos the new me is stronger than before
Cheer up, Grace :)

On a happier note, thanks for all those whose been there for me. Including you :) Piggg :D , rofl

I need to know where I'm heading.
No more idling around aimlessly like a lost soul like I used to do
&One more thing, look at your conscience.
Don't act like "Oh I'm not guilty at all"
Cos you are, and should be
Everything comes around and goes around.
There is definitely karma in this world

I finally understand.
I know what to do now,
let it go,
for the last and final time.
I won't have regrets, I hope.
And will go with what I say

Sorry, but I've tried my ultimate best.
I'm worn out, totally drained out.
I've tried so many ways, so many ways to please you
and make you happy.
But sorry, I failed.
And I'm tired.
You took a hold of my emotions,
tear me down like anything,
hurt my pride like anything,
and played with my feelings like fuck,
and also, doubt my good intentions.
I never ever thought this would happen in my whole entire life.
But, this is only the beginning of life,
here are still more obstacles to overcome
I won't let this tear me down anymore

"If it doesn't become yours even after all of that hardship,
then you have to give up on it clearly and cleanly"

Self-control

2009-04-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

I need to learn how to control my emotions and my actions
It is tough, but I guess I'll be okay

(The feeling ain't the same anymore,
I'm giving up)

I have enough of this heart breaking scene,

2009-03-24T17:49:00.004+08:00

After today, I know what to expect
And I'll know how to accept it even though is difficult
From what I see, to what I hear, to what I feel,
it drives me nuts and is tearing me down
I can only conclude one thing
You were just a liar and only playing with my damn feelings,
unfaithful and you're only using me. Damn it

Damn you, bastard! :o

Let it go and everything will soon be over,

2009-03-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

1) Let it go
2) Set your priorities right
3) Know that someone else is definitely better
4) Cheer up and be happy, because the future is near but never certain
5) Forget you once and for all

>:/
>:/
>:/
>:/
>:/
I hate you for hurting me and failing me always,
(I'm very disappointed)

Why weren't you there when I needed you the fucking most?

2009-03-21T14:20:00.000+08:00

Is been such a long time since I've cried so badly,
and yet after so long,
I'm still crying for the same damn old reason

I want to be over it, really

I was speechless, and I totally went blank out

2009-03-20T13:25:00.003+08:00

I was speechless, really speechless
The moment I saw that very hurtful sentence,
my mind went blank
I broke down, I broke down in tears

Now I know, she is more important than me to you
Still claiming that you'll choose me over her?
You're a liar, a chance taker and a heartbreaker
I never ever want to do anything with you ever again
You make me to this extent
For the first time in my sixteen years of life,
someone could actually say such hurtful sentence
How could you just tear me down like that?

Why? Why do you have to hurt me till this extent?
To forgive and forget this whole situation,
I won't ever be able to do that
Not contacting one another ever again,
is the best solution for us
I'll suffer myself, alone, without you knowing
This is bringing me nowhere
I know one fine day, I'll be able to forget you
One fine day............

At that point when you said that very sentence,
("seriously, I DONTT .........."),
I know I've to let you go this very final last time
Goodbye

Always know that,

~~And will always do~~
(Unless one day, I think you don't derserve it)
~~I love you~~

I'm at the verge of letting you go

2009-03-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

(Read my words like how you'll read my heart)

This is really killing me
I am trying my very best not to miss you
But I've failed

I told myself that I'll never ever shed a single tear for you anymore
I thought I'll be able to do it
But I've failed
I told myself that I'll never ever fall too deep in love with you again
But I've failed

I'm beat out, really beat out
Everyday, I will try putting a smile on your face
And I've did my best
But it seems like you don't even appreciate

I really tried.... :(

May my love for you remain, no matter how cruel reality is

2009-03-17T16:21:00.003+08:00

Change of blogskin :)
I like my new blogskin,
new blog skin, new fresh start.

Caught Marley and Me at Cathay.
Nice show, it made me love dogs more, haha
The feeling of sitting in a cinema again feels weird,
is been a long time since I've stepped into the cinema.
But still, I had a great time :)
I wanna watch Coming Soon, horror movie.
Is been a long time since I've watched a horror movie!

I've learn to look things on the brighter side, and I glad I've learn how to let go.
Because, it has made me stronger :)
If we are meant to be together, we will be, I'm sure about it

Love, all lies

2009-03-14T20:11:00.007+08:00

Service learning was great, will post pictures soon I guess :)
I had fun during sl. Went there last year too,
and it was fun seeing all the old folks again!

Flag day today, I'm damn worn out.
But yet, fulfilling to be able to do sth for the society.
Went over to Swenn's place after that,
and went home

Yknow, seriously, I trusted you again.
But however, you threw that chance away and played with it again.
How could you. Don't you think your conscience is guilty?
Please, stop lying to me.

(I know I'm trying my best to forget you alrd)

2009-03-11T19:54:00.007+08:00

♥You really had me going, for making me believe you would be faithful

(Be smart)

I just can't forget how you betrayed and be so unfaithful to me.
I really cannot forget. No matter how hard I've tried, it seems to be haunting me.
I really really want to forget you, and all our memories.
I don't think I deserve your cheating and unfaithfulness.
This is the worst thing someone can do to your partner- Being unfaithful

I'm feeling sad again, for don't know what fuck.
But I know, I don't miss you, I just think of you sometimes.
And I really want to stop this overwhelming feeling.
Really. This is killing me......
This is really haunting me every night. Please, just stop.

Everyday I tell myself, "No, I don't miss you. I don't miss you at all. I really don't"
How much do I actually mean it?
Fuck the whole world.

Lyrics:
One, two, three, four
Take me away to January
I'm done with this year
I'm tired of everyone here
I just need some time alone
Before I'm ready to come back home

There's gotta be something else out there for me,
I could feel it in my heart
The day I started to dream.
There's more than this Midwestern town
I can't let this place keep me down

So I tell myself

There's a girl out on the coast of California,
There's a world out there and it's waiting for you
And I can hear them calling my name, tonight

Take me away I need the sand and the waves, the sunset,
And lets not forget those warm Autumn days.
I just need to get out of here
And vist the coast just to see her.

There's gotta be something else out there for me,
I could feel it in my heart the day I started to dream.
There's more than this Midwestern town.
I can't let this place keep me down.

So I tell myself

There's a girl out on the coast of California
There's a world out there and it's waiting for you.
And I can hear it calling my name, tonight

There's a girl out on the coast of California
There's a world out there and it's waiting for you
And I can hear it calling my name, tonight

Take me away to January,
I'm done with this year.
I'm tired of everyone here.
I just need sometime alone before I'm ready to come back home

2009-03-08T19:08:00.004+08:00

♥Speechless,

I had a dream, a terrible dream.
And I broke out in tears the moment I woke up

(Try filling these in)

I'll never ever forget how you build me and up and tear me down.
I'll never ever forget how you betrayed me and tell others all that tales and stories.
I'll never ever forgive and forget what you've done to me and you've hurt me.
Even though I've hurt you before, at least I apologised and promised you I'll never do it again.
But you pushed your luck.
I'll never ever forget how you took me for granted and kept me hanging on the line.

I don't wish to detest you and hate you for your life, but I don't have a choice

(I still miss you though, I really do)

2009-03-04T17:35:00.003+08:00

♥Such a big mistake,

Bastard Bastard Bastard, go and die.
Bloody lj skinny faggot
You should just go and die, and never come back
I regretted everything I had with you, all the memories.
Omg, what a big mistake

2009-03-02T16:31:00.003+08:00

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you

How I wish I could forget all those memories
which are haunting me every single night

2009-02-26T19:42:00.004+08:00

Seriously, I really want you so much to get out of my life.
Seriously, Bastard. Fuck out of my life.
Every night, I pray that you'll get out of my life.
Cos this is killing me.
How I wish unfaithful bastards like you never existed.
So unfaithful bastards like you will really stop hurting girls
You used to mean everything to me, being the centre of my life,
but now, I doubt so. Please, fuck out of my life.
Omg. When will I ever stop thinking of you. Omg, seriously.
I wish I never shared any memories with you before,
then I will then stop thinking of you.
How good can that be
I wish I never ever knew you before
Really, I miss the old you. You've changed, big time.
Somehow, I regretted knowing you.
How the hell have you changed till this extent?

Sorry for the foul languages, but I really cannot take it anymore

2009-02-25T20:55:00.013+08:00

♥ You build me up, and then you tear me down just like that

I love Chase Coy. He's damn hot okay.
I couldn't find the real mv.
But whatever is it, this song is damn nice.

> Just look at him, <3

You can rest early tonight
Everything's gonna be alright
Go to sleep and dream of me tonight
Everything may not be perfect, but at least we tried

So tonight

Sweet Dreams and sleep tight
I've been trying so hard, can't get you out of my mind
And if this is how it has to be, just promise you won't forget me
And I'll leave you with this lullaby

Tonight

I know that this hurts you, it hurts me too
I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for you
Sometimes it's tough, too soon to call it love but I wanted to
Yeah I wanted to, but it's too late now to say all the wonderful things that
I thought of you

2009-02-21T23:36:00.003+08:00

♥I put my faith in you, so much faith. And then you just threw it away

I don't know what to blog actually. But I just came back home, and I'm feeling really tired. And I feel.... (idk how to describe). Idk, but I don't feel like talking. And, I want to leave this place. Idk why am I typing this, but don't ask me why too.

Lots of tests next week, but I don't even have the mood to study. I really need a break.

If you ever want something so badly, let it go. If it comes back, then it is yours forever. If it doesn't then it was never yours to begin with - Blake Lively

I believe this phrase very much
Now, it all depends on fate

2009-02-15T17:54:00.003+08:00

♥I cannot erase the things you've done, and all the ways you kept me hanging on

Love; It can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life. Yet why are we still taking the risk, or even plunging deeper into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow? - Taken from my private blog

I had nearly forgotten how it felt like to be, Joy

2009-02-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

♥ Well, maybe I was never meant to be with you

Despite how bitterly I was crying, I can't believe that you just sit there, without even consoling or asking how I feel, after being insulted by someone.

You hurt me, real real real deep.

2009-02-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

♥不能在一起也没关系, 至少你懂我的心

(Don't be shocked about the chinese words above)

Hadn't been feeling well lately, fever and headache.
Probably due to all the stress and problems happening around in my life now.
I can't sleep last night, was thinking alot. Woke up several times in the morning and couldn't get back to sleep. History is repeating itself again.

I really wonder how things became like this.
A love we once hold so dearly in our hearts,
A love that we have so much passionate in,
A love we once had so much sweet memories,
has gone just like that.
I really dont want all these to fade...

2009-02-07T14:12:00.002+08:00

♥Where were you when I needed you? Why must you doubt me and believe others instead?

I hadn't been blogging lately due to all the school work and I'm feeling really lethargic. School was great, apart from problems that are inevitable. Everyday, I go school with a heavy heart, thinking what will happen in the days to come. Everyday, I've to face different truths and then I'll get disappointed.

I'm fucking tired of living, everyday I've to face with so much problems, it seems like there's a never ending to it. Friendship problems, relationship problems, and family problems..

You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I really want you to be there when I needed you the most

2009-01-26T22:05:00.001+08:00

♥I always wanted you to be there when i fall, I always wanted you to see me through it all.

Haven't been blogging lately, cos i'm busy with my schoolwork, tests and everything else.
Many things happened these few week, both good and bad. All I have to say is that everythng happen for a reason. I just have to face the truth and the reality, is only a matter of time.
After so much things happened, I realise that actually no one is really there for me when I needed someone. People can tell me that they are always there for me and all that, but how is it true about it when I don't feel it? Yes i know you all are there for me, but somehow, not really because I really cannot feel it. Not even you.

Happy(?) New Year!

Something terrible happen today, on the 1st day of new year. And I was all alone, by myself.

Maybe you're better off without me. After all that has happened, false hopes are what i get. Everything was just a dream. I miss you but I'll definitely stop myself from thinking of you.
Life sucks to the fucking core.

2009-01-01T09:39:00.000+08:00

♥You make me smile, you make my day, you make me know that I love you more each day

I hadn't been blogging much cos i'm damn busy these few days!!! But it was all worthwhile :)
Caught quite a lot of movies for this two weeks, Twilight, Yes Man, and Bedtime stories. I want to catch AUSTRALIA!!!! :(
Anyway, Yes Man was funny. Bedtime Stories was funny and a bit boring. Twilight was fun and nice, cos the company was great :D

And I bought a new CareBear Shirt from NUM!!! :D I was deciding on either the Raspberry Tart, Blueberry Muffin and the CareBear one. Carebear looks nice and I own the CareBear Love Bear too, so I bought it :) The shirt says: Believe In Love. Come to think of it, maybe Love is worth believing.

Now that 2008 is going to be over, I must say that 2008 was a fulfilling one yet tough one.
Old friends gone, new friends met. Heartbreaks? Happy times? Memories? Friendship problems, relationship and family problems. 2008 is a year that I'll not forget, the year that I faced with so many problems. A year that I'll always remember, proabably. But I'm looking forward to 2009!

I can't wait for 2009, and I hope this year would be a much more problem-free yet fun year. That I find true friends(?) probably, and friends that will be there for me. And of cos, having you for myself again :x

Resolutions for 2009?
To be less insecure, and more secure with the people around me
To be less guiliable and not to trust people around me too easily
To be less senstitive and not getting paranoid too easily
To change my fucking(oops) temper
To be with you again, I hope(?)
To be more independent
To be less vulgar!!!!
To study hard

That should be about it. I'm welcoming 2009 with warmth and excitement.
Ps. Pictures will be up soon too :)

2008-12-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

♥Make me forget you so that I don't have to think of you every night

Took back N level results, and i got 7 points.
Well, i got the points that I wanted. But i expected more.
A2s for English and Math, B3s for Combined Humans, F&N and Sciences, B4 for Chinese
Chinese suck, yes i know. But i did my best, and i've been listening to chinese musics! :D

After all this while, I realise I'm still thinking of you

2008-12-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

Pictures from Jacq's party, as promised.
All the pictures we took are here.
My sixteen birthday and chalet pictures will be up soon.

>Camwhored in Kbox with Hannah, Jacq and Althea

>Hannah and Grace

>Hannah, Jacq and me

>Jacq and Hannah

>Althea, Jacq, Grace and Hannah

>Jacq and Grace

More pictures tmrw!

2008-12-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

♥Keep me in your memory, will you?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JACQUELINE :)

Celebrated Jacqueline's birthday yesterday at Kbox. Is been a long time since I've enter Kbox. Jacqueline's treat! :) Thanks, birthday girl! Crystal Jade for dinner after that, we all ate congee. Then headed to Hannah's place.

Attended Elize's bbq few days back. It was fun, the food was great. Bought her a sunflower :)
Just realise that I actually attended three Bbqs this week! Omgomgomomgomg

Oh! And I've finally got back my Ipod!!! I can finally listen to my music :)
I've been listening to chinese music nowadays, i wonder why.

Omgomgomgomg, N level results are coming out soon.

Anyway, pictures will be up soon.

2008-12-10T15:50:00.001+08:00

♥If only i could tell you how much i feel for you. When can I ever see you again?

I went for Tiffany's party at her place. Happy birthday,Tiffany!
I caught up w Elize and Michelle :) Is been a long time since i've last talked to them! Elize used to be my really good friend in Sec one, and michelle used to be my GB squad leader who is always reminding me to come for GB. HAHA. Hope to catch up with you all more :)
There was a time when Elize, Theodore, Swenn, Michelle, Yuqi and me started talking about Primary school days! Hahaha, we had a great laugh about what happen in the Primary school in the past. So many flings happen in the school at that time, tsk tsk. (You know who you are!)
Went home pretty late, then something happen. Shan't elaborate.

Went for Johnson's chalet the next day, had fun. Just came home ytd in the morning. Elize was there, and we talked a lot :) As Elize was working till 11 plus, i went town w Mervyn and Swenn, so that I could meet Elize later to go tgt. Met Elize at 12 at Outram, and we talked a lot in the cab. We all slept at 5 plus but I couldn't sleep, cos it was damn cold. Thanks for the jacket :) Woke up for breakfast at 7 plus, and we went to eat. Then left at 10am.

Omg, my aunt confiscated my ipods and my camera!!!! Cos I stayed over at the chalet, which actually she didn't allow me to. I've no music, cos my speakers at my computer are spoilt too. That left me only w my psp, which only consist of one pathetic song ): I've been playing the song for quite a long time, and i can even remember the lyrics now! How pathetic is that. I almost couldn't survived ytd, due to the loss of music. I'm not exaggerating, but I seriously almost couldn't take it ):

Maybe i shouldn't rush things, and I should take one step at a time. I should let nature take its course, and to wait and see. I should take a rest from relationships and let my friendships and family to revolve around my life, and wait till........ my Mr Right comes :)

I think i've made up my mind to forget you, and to get on with life. Cos since this is the case, and this was what i found out, it really triggered my heart and my heart tells me to let it all go. Thanks for the one year, two months :) I appreciated it a lot.

2008-12-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

♥I trusted you all along, and only you. But what did you do?

Follow yr heart.

All my posts will be on my private blog from today onwards, unless i want to blog here.

2008-12-04T18:39:00.001+08:00

♥&I'm just wasting my all my life just thinking of you.

I'm fucking bored. Might be going out tmrw tho.
I'm listening to Secondhand Sereande- Maybe.
I love the song :)

Oh, this is my private blog. Only invited readers will have access :)
So, ask me if you want to access.
http://www.lockedlove.blogspot.com/

2008-12-02T22:00:00.001+08:00

♥I'll always remember how we came close, i'll always remember the memories

At last, i found a job in Guardian. But confirmation will only be after three days, so i really pray hard that i can get the job! Cos i need the job to kill time and to stop me from thinking about anything and everything.

Oh, and i went for a shopping spree on Friday and Saturday. Is been a long time since i've last shopped. I bought many many chocolates and sweets, a Fuji camera(pink!! :D), Ipod nano-chromatic(pink!! :D) and a black crumpler. I needed a rest, a rest from everything that is happening. I needed to cheer myself up. I realise that whenever I'm sad or even when something bad happen, i'll shop like mad. Maybe that's how i cool myself down.

Oh yessss, and i've created a private blog. But is not complete yet, all the blogskins and everything are not up yet. Will blog again if i'm done with the blog.

People change, things change, everything changed.
Maybe is time to move on, move on and get on with life...

2008-11-30T17:45:00.000+08:00

♥I tt you won't ever ever do that, cos i trusted you. You just disappointed me so so much.

I trusted you with all my heart, i trusted you that you wouldn't do this to hurt me. And i trusted you that even if you want to hurt me, i never dreamt that you would do this.

Such expensive gadgets for someone you barely know.. Maybe is not someone you barely knew, maybe you are quite close to the someone, maybe you talk to the someone behind my back even when we are still attached, maybe..... There are just too many maybes, so much so that i can't even think of the worst.

Please try putting yourself in my shoes. Please consider my feelings before doing anything. Please stop hurting me....

Thank God that i have friends, friends who are there for me. Friends like Theodore and Swenn, thanks for everything. True friends like you guys are hard to find. When it was the darkest point of my life, you guys were there for me. You guys stood by me.

2008-11-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

♥Only you can save me from my misery that i'm suffering from now

Today stayed home, really bored. Couldn't sleep last night, but finally i fell asleep at five plus when i heard the mrt trains moving.

I still rmb when you came to my place with handmade breakfasts, and company me to school every morning without fail. You'll either take the Mrt or bus to my place. I miss your breakfasts, i really do. Egg and Ham sandwiches? Cheese and Ham sandwiches? Sausages? Honey lemon drink? Chips? I realy miss eating breakfasts every morning with you..

I'm damn bored everyday. I need to do something and not just waste my time away. Maybe i should start working, so i'll not think so much when i'm home alone.

You always thought that i was always stronger to withstand whatever that is happening now. But i'm not as strong as you think.
I always hope to receive a text message or phone call from you everyday. I love you to bits

2008-11-23T17:37:00.000+08:00

♥Friends, thanks so much for the surprise. Love, thanks so much for coming. I love you.

Birthday was two days ago. I celebrated it on two seperate days- Thurs and Friday. I celebrated it on Thurs with Celeste, Swenn, Tiffany, Yuqi, Mervyn. Thanks for the cake and the gifts. I appreciated it alot :)

Good friends gave me a surprise on Friday night. I tt they were not gna celebrate my birthday!!!! Cos they told me that all of them were not free. I was damn disappointed!! But.... they went downstairs my place :) And gave me a really really really really surprising suprise!!!! Weeee, my second best birthday i had! :))))

I met them at 7.30pm and they brought gifts :) All of yr presences were the most important thing, and not the gifts actually. And so... while i was wishing, someone was beside me which i actually don't feel it! When i open my eyes, i got a shock of my life. But it was the best best shock ever. I was damn overjoyed that i couldn't help but cried, it was not tears of sorrow but tears of joy. You don't know how much yr presence mean so much to me. After the surprise, we went to have our dinner and we took pictures and went home.

Love,
thanks so much for coming. I was really happy, very very very happy (x10000000) indeed. I had the most shocking shock of my life, which in turn didn't scare me but brighten up my day. The four hours we had tgt are very well-treasured and cherished by me. It has been so long since i last felt so happy ever since things turned sour. And is been such a long time since i last saw you, i miss you god damn much. So much so that i couldn't help but cry when i see you!! I miss you.. really really really too much. Weeeeeeee, i'm smiling to myself now. :)) Anw back to the point... I miss the times we had tgt, both the sad and happy times. And i really wna extend my warmest thanks to you, for coming down and to celebrate my sweet sixteen w me :) I'll not forget my sweet 16 ever ever. :) I love you, hell much.

Friends (Ivy, Shreedhya, Hannah, Jacq, Joey, Bella),
I just wna thank you guys so so so much for this lovely surprise. You guys are really great friends that i really treasure a lot too. Ivy, Hannah, Jacq, Shreedhya, thanks so much for coming!! :) And thanks to the whole group, including Joey and Bella for the surprise too :) Love you, lovelies. I'm really grateful to you guys, I really don't know how to thank you guys for the surprise. This year is my second best birthday ever. I'm glad that i've found friends like you guys that are always here for me. Thanks for everything! :D

Friends (Swenn, Tiffany, Celeste, Mervyn, Yuqi),
Thanks for everything on Thurs too. I appreciate the cake and the gifts too. Thanks for coming, i had rally great fun with you guys. This year's my second best birthday and so, just wna thank you guys! :)

Pictures will be up soon! Weee, i'm a happy bitch :)
I love you so much so that words can't descirbe it.

2008-11-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

♥Every night, i pray hard that you can spent my sweet sixteen with me

I'm disappointed, very few are turning up on my birthday.
How does it feels when most of yr friends are not turning up on yr sweet sixteen?

All i want for my birthday is you.

2008-11-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

♥My feelings were too loud, that i couldn't even get to hear myself.

Family were great, they surprised me on Sunday with a Strawberry Shortcake birthday cake. Pictures will be up soon.

My sweet sixteen birthday is reaching, in three days time. I'm excited, cos is my sweet sixteen. I think Sweet Sixteen is very important in someone's life. Apart from being qualified to watch a NC16 movie, another reason i think is that this is the point where humans will grow up and mature. I can't believe it myself that I'm 16. How time flies. In a blink of an eye, you may see yourself getting married and starting a family yourself. I'm not trying to exaggerate, but yes, this is how fast time flies.

What is/are my birthday wish(es)?
I have too many to mention.

But the one that i really wish for is that you will celebrate this year's birthday with me. Last year when you celebrate my birthday with me, it was such great joy. Although it was not on the actual day, because i was down with chicken pox(Don't laugh), but i still feel the birthday atmosphere, because i was spending with someone i really love a lot. Everything we do together, everything we wish for together, everything we promise to each other, i remember them so so vividly. That no matter how hard you want me to forget, i won't even forget any of our memories, or i should say that i can't forget any of our memories. You're all that i wished for on this sweet sixteen birthday. I love you.

The pieces of my heart are missing you.

2008-11-12T15:39:00.001+08:00

♥I'll remember you, know that i'm always here for you.

I stayed home for the past two days. Didn't feel like going out since is raining too.

I was browsing through my music files, and i found this song.

ill remember you - NO SECRETS

I think the lyrics are really meaningful, since it is also reflecting my own personal life.

Lyrics:
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change

Cuz what we had can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away
Keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
I could do almost anything
You stood right by me
Through the tears through everything

I'll Remember You
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll Remember You

Oooooh

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared
The tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back
To meet again someday
Even though we go seperate ways

You made me believe
I could do almost anything
You stood right by me
Through the tears through everything

I'll Remember You
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll Remember You

If the day should come when you need someone
You know that I'll follow
I will be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
Cuz I'll Remember YouYou

I'll Remember You
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going through
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby I'll Remember You